Sunday, February 15, 2009

"You Don't Know Me.."


You don't know me
But I'm the girl who cries every morning.
In hopes every night for his safe return home.
I'm the girl who drags herself out of bed every morning so that he will be proud of her when he comes home.
I'm the girl who lies in bed longing for him to be next to me.
I'm the girl who sits quietly during class because all i can think about is the next moment when he will safely be in my arms again.
You don't know me
But I'm the girl with a million things to say, but none will come out without the thought of him.
I'm the girl who checks my cell phone every 5 seconds
Just to make sure i haven't missed his call.
I'm the girl who stops and stares and wishes for him to return soon each and every time another man in uniform walks by.

What you don't know
Is that I know love on an entirely different level from most.
I know the love that spans time and space; the love that most people are constantly searching for.
I'm one of the girls who waits months for a single kiss;
A kiss that will make the months apart worth every second.
A kiss where everything in the world stops for what seem like an eternity.
You can see it in that person's soul and know that without them life could never be the same.

You tell me I'm too young to be so in love;
I know that love has no age limit.
You tell me i don't even understand what love is.
I tell you i know more love in homecoming than most know in a life time.
You don't know that every time he leaves a part of me goes with him and a part of him stays with me.
You tell me that people change but i tell you,
True love will always remain constant and steady.
You tell me you know how i feel and understand what I'm going through
you have no idea.
What you dont realize is that i understand the true meaning of not only love but of longing and anticipation.

You don't see
But I'm one of the few who gets goose bumps as my little heart fills with pride everytime the national anthem is played.
I'm one of the girls who will stand tall and stay strong on the outside
but I'm dying in the inside.
I'm one of the girls who will make friends with complete strangers for only they can begin to understand what i'm going through.
You don't understand
That i picture his face everywhere i go and that he is with me in everything i do.
You think i don't cry anymore, that i have gotten over it,
What you don't know is that i just hide it better.

You don't know
The feeling the first time you hear the word deployment or the feeling of his hand as it slides out of yours for what could be the last time.
You don't know
What that last hugs or kiss means and how important that goodbye truly is.
I'm the girl you see standing alone in the corner of the airport
Watching quietly out the window with tears rolling down my cheeks.
I'm the girl you see with a disheartened face
Staring silently at the ground.

What you don't know,
Is that I know true love
That no matter what obstacle we have to face,
Our love will live forever (that only we know)

You tell me that you support the troops;
I tell you, I'm in love with one.
I'm one of the silent, but outgoing;
Weak, but strong;
Scared, but grateful.

What you don't see is that he needs me and I need him.

I'm one of those girls: the girls who stand tall behind her soldier.
Stand proud behind her Hero.
Stands strong behind her man.
Watching silently and patiently as he serves and defends our country...

by..Unknown(but it speaks personal truth)

Thursday, November 6, 2008

New Look...

I know for the longest time I haven't put anything new here, and as many know already, my blog has gone for a major overhaul. I thought it was just time to clean it up and put better things on it...eventually hehe. :)
I have changed the look of this for a while, just waiting till I found one I liked, and yes, I liked this one the best.
I'm sorry I haven't updated or anything for quite some time, but I assure you I will be soon enough.
For the time being, things are doing quite alright, I'm still working hard at JCPenney, and have found a, for once, truly great man in my life named Andrew, my car that I've had since back in high school has finally sold and I am now without a car lol..but am excited on my search for a new one.
I'll update in more detail as time goes.
Love and miss all my family and hope we can all be together sometime soon.

Till then..

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Strength is My God